selamat tinggal ramadhan

last night i went to "qiamullai" at mosque. not being pushed by my mom o my dad but on my own. i dunno y, but its true, better late than ever rite???

its been a long time since I've not been at mosque since adolescence knocked my life, since that, i just lost my way to the mosque....
finally i realize what is serenity and tranquility is all about. is weird emotion yet calm and peace. so weird. but i think i found the peace of its own. the emotion is so high, the ambient is in minor key yet so peaceful and calm. serenade emotion spread all over the mosque.

i never felt like this before, suddenly the tears appears even im not in sad o miserable mood. so weird yet so calm an peace.my mind is free right now. free from drugs, free from nicotine, free from the death of michael jackson, free from daily workk. now im realise how tiny i'am in this big world.
time passing by...im still in the mood of serenade,im a lost child, really lost in my own world. allah still love me....
a very thankful for almighty allah for letting me alive, for giving me a chance to live in this ramadhan spirit even i really dunno if i got another chance to be on the next ramadhan....letting me alive and shared all my emotions wih all my frens....im not alone......

ramadhan gonna left me... the greatest sadness.greater than the death of michael jackson